Reason

Am I good to you Could I do more I can be very self absorbed I did not choose this road I own Will you forgive me Never thought I’d need you Now I know the score, believe me I only want to love you more * For every reason I give you To give up on me You give me one more reason to believe * For every reason I give you To give up on me Ohh Ohh you give me reason * In the dark I feel you As your presence bars the door Your silence overwhelms me While your quiet breathing dulls my roar So many neon failures Still you glow each time I soar I only want to love you more * You could have closed your eyes You could have walked away You could have turned your back But you pick me up and hold me one more day

Rain

Leave me be I’m busy driving demons from the night Quiet dawn Perfecting every color by its light Here I go I’m flying inhibitions like a kite Faster still Reflecting off the day it blinds my sight * And it looks like sun Drying out the pain What I wouldn’t give For just a little rain And it looks like sun Allow me to explain What I wouldn’t give Oh, for just a little rain * Holding back Sorting through the gray for black and white One more time Cast away the shadows twice my height I have found Forgiveness frees my spirit from its plight And a little faith Restores these tired wings and gives them flight * It’s not that I Allow myself to bargain with the pain But there are days When you never want to face the night again And so it goes It’s sometimes easier to let it stay Before you rise Find the strength and send it on its way

Storm

You won’t slow a raging river from the middle You’ve got to seek the end and wait the calm again And I can’t help you stay afloat If you won’t reach for me And I can’t fix this broken hope again * And we’ll go down together Silent in these waves Choking on a storm Of words we never said * After all this time It’s funny I’m Still wishing * In a thundering silence a soul cracked in this room Now it’s standing room only But they don’t know you like I do I know I made up all the rules I still wonder why, no one gets to you the way I try * Odds are we’ll surface With little or no faith The storm will cease And we’ll wind up somewhere safe * Will it really Matter at all Cause in this storm I can’t hear you call

Rockbottom

When you’re slipping You don’t stop to wonder why It’s all you can do to hold onto yourself And watch the images fly * And for a second you fumble And you lose your grasp You think to yourself maybe finally Rock bottom at last * No worse, you breathe No lower, you sigh I’ve been down so long so far now I don’t even think I can cry * No more, you ask No harder, you say I’ve been down so long so far now I don’t even know how to pray * When you’re slipping Nothing matters but your speed It’s all you can do to land hard on your feet Unbroken in one piece * And for a minute you wonder And you look around You think to yourself is it possible To return to higher ground * I don’t even know where to start To stop the bleeding from this perforated heart And that’s when you declare enough And you begin to climb the steepest wall back up

Drive

It’s many miles I know But the desert’s pale And a white wind blows All’s quiet in my mind Crossing another state line * Scaled down to simplicity Got another moon hanging in front of me Finally nothing but darkness around Crossing another town * Drive Drive Drive * The cell phone’s acting funny It only works when I hang up It seems that that’s when all the words begin to flow Free falling from the mouth * So I guess you have no idea About the way I really feel And the only way for me to try and sort it through Is from this perspective behind the wheel * Sometimes even starlight burns If it shines on you too long But you still prefer the safety of the night Where you glide along silent and strong * Driving through another town I can’t pull off and I can’t get out What I lost I think you’ve found Crazy how I’m all alone Several thousand miles from home Should I turn around or should I drive

Exit #9

Baby I know I told you I’d be home by five With all my heart I really thought I would And why I kept moving past the exit on the highway Is a mystery I never understood * The sky ahead bled twilight and the rain fell And a pounding heart kept rhythm with my head I’d split the difference easy on your wrongs against my rights To silence the war of what we said * Cause you’re all I ever loved And it’s taken all my strength to understand And it’s broken down my will; now I know there is a hell And I would not be here No, I would not be here If I only took your hand * Scratch the surface, what a bloody shame Tears fall red and reckless down my face With all my heart I wished you here beside me When I hit ground running from this place * It’s bitter cold without you hear inside my head Courage isn’t what they chalk it up to be Worse is that I’m lonely for the stupid things you said But I can’t forgive dishonesty

Firegirl

What If I was supposed to be firegirl What If I ignored the flames along the way What If I destroyed the best laid plans before me When I found it was so much more than I could take * The higher I fly, the further I fall The more that I learn, well the less that I know And the deeper I feel, so much wider this hole I’m just trying to find my wings So I won’t burn and blister in these flames * Still I believed I was supposed to be this firegirl And I believed I’d put out flames along the way But in the middle of this fire and flying ember I was burning in my own greatest mistake * And in the dark there comes an angel to me She said you don’t need wings beneath the deep blue sea In tranquil blue you’ll float free of this fire The question is now will you fly or dive * The darker my days, well the grander my goals The tighter my grip just makes me loosen my hold It’s much harder to keep, than it is to let go I’m just trying to find my wings So, I won’t burn and blister in these flames
Again

Body

It’s 8 a.m. And you’re not here And I am not Wherever you are I know your bones Your strong embrace But it’s getting hard for me To find your face * What the body remembers Is stronger than the mind What the body remembers Is your body next to mine * I rest my eyes and breathe you in What the body remembers Is written in my skin * It’s 8 p.m. And I’m not there And you are not Wherever I am The image burns Upon my hand Reaching out, rising up To meet the body’s demands * I know your rhythm The way you move into your day I concentrate To find your face But it’s always the same I feel you near Before I ever imagine You are here

Superhero

I know you already know this But I’ll say it again Loving you is like finding hope in a box And waiting to open it * It’s so incredibly perfect I know this can’t be my life It’s out of somebody’s fantasy And I fear it will end if I ever open my eyes * And I feel so strong And you feel so right This can’t be wrong If I’m taking flight * And I’m pretty sure That I’m ten feet tall And for once I can’t find Anything wrong at all * With you I’m so much better I think I’m a superhero You’re my superman And I’ll be your supergirl * You lift me so much higher I think I’m a superhero Don’t ask me why But baby, baby, baby Baby I can fly * If for a minute you doubt me And think I’m losing my mind Well I’ll just throw on my cape, and we’ll fly all around You by my side * And we’ll leap the tallest of buildings And stop a runaway train And we’ll live happily ever after Cause this kind of love never ends

Probably

Missing you is not the way I planned this Out of sight is never out of mind Loving you long distance barely fills me up And I can’t get your drift chatting on-line * I wonder where you are and what you’re doing I wonder if you’re wondering on me The nights are getting longer and my phone just doesn’t ring I think that it’s broken, cause I haven’t heard a thing * Probably it will be okay And probably you are fine You’re probably laughing right now And probably I’ve stopped crying * Every mile a bitch and back between us Holding you is just a memory Your picture’s really crumpled cause I sleep with it in bed And I’m starting to think this is messing with my head * Get out of my way I’m out of my mind I need to get back now It’s a matter of time * Probably it will be okay And probably you’re still fine But probably’s never been good enough Let it be good enough this time

Skin

Holding onto promises Holding forth for gain Holding out for better days Holding up thru change Holding in our deepest fears Holding back against the years Holding onto dignity Holding out for you and me * And I would trade it all For one more night of bliss I’m begging God again And shaking both my fists And I’m still drowning in your skin And tasting from your lips I’m not sure that I know how To handle this * You used the word amazing And amazing is the twist The risk of reaching out to me And the chance I might have missed There’s so much more to learn of you And the sweetness that I’ve seen I know that I can be without as long as you are within But how long will I make it in this skin * Take my skin In To the dark abyss Where I will Remember this

Surrender

What will they say What will you think That’s enough for today And one of us needs a drink * Put down the guns No need to run I’ll still be here after year * Peel back the armor The flesh and the sin Scrape off the image Bare bones again * How can I surrender When I still remember I don’t even know what it means To let go * How can I surrender When I still remember And I can’t lose control God forbid, someone knows * Stand on the stage And watch the scene change Naked and sacred Stripped of all shame * Now I understand How lucky I am But there was no guarantee That you would be with me * Are we strong enough Careful what you wish for It gets out of hand What have we done now Are we strong enough Careful what you wish for, it’s never enough It gets out of hand What have we done now, and where will we land

Choosing You

I wish that I could explain Maybe I’ll try it anyway No idea what this is all about A dark night of the soul no doubt * Honey, I’m starting to realize Mirror, mirror’s just been telling lies Remind me that it’s not okay, to operate this way I’ve been the biggest fool of all * And I know that I lose if I choose To remain in this slow motion madness And I know that I lose if I choose To believe that I’m giving up on you * So you say this is the real thing And we polish and protect But I’m gluing back the pieces of all my mistakes Honey, I still feel like something’s cracked * And once in awhile I believe We catch the break that we desperately need This would be about the time that I could make good use of mine I’ve been the biggest fool of all * Sliding towards translucence I crawl into your head And lay me down And maybe for awhile I’ll hang around

Sword & Stone

Razor wire, sword and stone Kept me from my righteous home White magic cast in time Spun for my peace of mind * Be still and listen now No need to speak at all A candle speaks of rich reward Deep within the castle walls * But all I see Are the storms I’ve brewed In front of me And sweet revenge Has this monumental Edge * And I would never have thought That I could get to mercy now Change of heart, flesh and bone Forgiveness conquers sword and stone * Sure as the moon will rise Above the hill and cross A second chance is ushered in Weep no more for what was lost

Don’t Forget To Write

There’s no hurry You’ve got no place to go Find the calm, my love Let it soothe you real slow * You don’t remember That’s all right because I do It’s just so strange how I don’t know what to do * But if you falter I’ll be there by your side Take care now Don’t forget to write * I will remember The blueness of your eyes Take care now Don’t forget to write * Now it’s different You fly away unharmed Leave behind the armor Call the fight with open arms * From the distance You begin to see the shapes No need to salvage Cause nothing went to waste * For a moment You’ll fight without a sword On the battlefield you knew Find the calm Rest awhile Let it speak to you