Rain

Leave me be * I’m busy driving demons from the night * Quiet dawn * Perfecting every color by its light * Here I go * I’m flying inhibitions like a kite * Faster still * Reflecting off the day it blinds my sight * Chorus * And it looks like sun * Drying out the pain * What I wouldn’t give * For just a little rain * And it looks like sun * Allow me to explain * What I wouldn’t give * Oh, for just a little rain * Holding back * Sorting through the gray for black and white * One more time * Cast away the shadows twice my height * I have found * Forgiveness frees my spirit from its plight * And a little faith * Restores these tired wings and gives them flight * Chorus * Bridge * It’s not that I * Allow myself to bargain with the pain * But there are days * When you never want to face the night again * And so it goes * It’s sometimes easier to let it stay * Before you rise * Find the strength and send it on its way * Chorus Lyrics: Laura Bradley, Music: Laura Bradley & Claudio Spiewak

Choosing You

I wish that I could explain * Maybe I’ll try it anyway * No idea what this is all about * A dark night of the soul no doubt * Honey, I’m starting to realize * Mirror, mirror’s just been telling lies * Remind me that it’s not okay, to operate this way * I’ve been the biggest fool of all * Chorus * And I know that I lose if I choose * To remain in this slow motion madness * And I know that I lose if I choose * To believe that I’m giving up on you * So you say this is the real thing * And we polish and protect * But I’m gluing back the pieces of all my mistakes * Honey, I still feel like something’s cracked * And once in awhile I believe * We catch the break that we desperately need * This would be about the time that I could make good use of mine * I’ve been the biggest fool of all * Chorus * Bridge * Sliding towards translucence * I crawl into your head * And lay me down * And maybe for awhile * I’ll hang around * Chorus * Lyrics and Music: Laura Bradley

Skin

Holding onto promises * Holding forth for gain * Holding out for better days * Holding up thru change * Holding in our deepest fears * Holding back against the years * Holding onto dignity * Holding out for you and me * Chorus * And I would trade it all * For one more night of bliss * I’m begging God again * And shaking both my fists * And I’m still drowning in your skin * And tasting from your lips * I’m not sure that I know how * To handle this * You used the word amazing * And amazing is the twist * The risk of reaching out to me * And the chance I might have missed * There’s so much more to learn of you * And the sweetness that I’ve seen * I know that I can be without as long as you are within * But how long will I make it in this skin * Chorus * Bridge * Take my skin * In * To the dark abyss * Where I will * Remember this * Chorus * Lyrics and Music: Laura Bradley

Reason

Am I good to you * Could I do more * I can be very self absorbed * I did not choose this road I own * Will you forgive me * Never thought I’d need you * Now I know the score * Believe me * I only want to love you more * Chorus * For every reason * I give you * To give up on me * You give me one more reason to believe * For every reason * I give you * To give up on me * Ohh Ohh you give me reason * In the dark I feel you * As your presence bars the door * Your silence overwhelms me * While your quiet breathing dulls my roar * So many neon failures * Still you glow each time I soar * I only want to love you more * Chorus * Bridge * You could have closed your eyes * You could have walked away * You could have turned your back * But you pick me up and hold me one more day * Chorus Lyrics: Laura Bradley, Music: Laura Bradley & Claudio Spiewak

Firegirl

What If I was supposed to be firegirl * What If I ignored the flames along the way * What If I destroyed the best laid plans before me * When I found it was so much more than I could take * Chorus * The higher I fly, the further I fall * The more that I learn, well the less that I know * And the deeper I feel, so much wider this hole * I’m just trying to find my wings * So I won’t burn and blister in these flames * Still I believed I was supposed to be this firegirl * And I believed I’d put out flames along the way * But in the middle of this fire and flying ember * I was burning in my own greatest mistake * Chorus * Bridge * And in the dark there comes an angel to me * She said you don’t need wings beneath the deep blue sea * In tranquil blue you’ll float free of this fire * The question is now will you fly or dive * Chorus * The darker my days, well the grander my goals * The tighter my grip just makes me loosen my hold * It’s much harder to keep, than it is to let go * I’m just trying to find my wings * So, I won’t burn and blister in these flames, Again * Lyrics and Music: Laura Bradley

Drive

It’s many miles I know * But the desert’s pale * And a white wind blows * All’s quiet in my mind * Crossing another state line * Scaled down to simplicity * Got another moon hanging in front of me * Finally nothing but darkness around * Crossing another town * Chorus * Drive * Drive * Drive * The cell phone’s acting funny * It only works when I hang up * It seems that that’s when all the words begin to flow * Free falling from the mouth * So I guess you have no idea * About the way I really feel * And the only way for me to try and sort it through * Is from this perspective behind the wheel * Chorus * Bridge * Sometimes even starlight burns * If It shines on you too long * But you still prefer the safety of the night * Where you glide along silent and strong * Chorus * Driving through another town * I can’t pull off and I can’t get out * What I lost I think you’ve found * Crazy how I’m all alone * Several thousand miles from home * Should I turn around or should I drive * Chorus * Lyrics and Music: Laura Bradley

Rockbottom

When you’re slipping * You don’t stop to wonder why * It’s all you can do to hold onto yourself * And watch the images fly * And for a second you fumble * And you lose your grasp * You think to yourself maybe finally * Rock bottom at last * Chorus * No worse, you breathe * No lower, you sigh * I’ve been down so long so far now * I don’t even think I can cry * No more, you ask * No harder, you say * I’ve been down so long so far now * I don’t even know how to pray * When you’re slipping * Nothing matters but your speed * It’s all you can do to land hard on your feet * Unbroken in one piece * And for a minute you wonder * And you look around * You think to yourself is it possible * To return to higher ground * Chorus * Bridge * I don’t even know where to start * To stop the bleeding from this perforated heart * And that’s when you declare enough * And you begin to climb the steepest wall back up * Chorus * Lyrics and Music: Laura Bradley

Sword & Stone

Razor wire, sword and stone * Kept me from my righteous home * White magic cast in time * Spun for my peace of mind * Be still and listen now * No need to speak at all * A candle speaks of rich reward * Deep within the castle walls * Pre-chorus * But all I see * Are the storms I’ve brewed * In front of me * And sweet revenge * Has this monumental Edge * Chorus * And I’d have never thought * That I could get to mercy now * Change of heart, flesh and bone * Forgiveness conquers sword and stone * Sure as the moon will rise * Above the hill and cross * A second chance is ushered in * Weep no more for what was lost * Pre-chorus * Chorus * Lyrics and Music: Laura Bradley

Exit #9

Baby I know I told you I’d be home by five * With all my heart I really thought I would * And why I kept moving past the exit on the highway * Is a mystery I never understood * They sky ahead bled twilight and the rain fell * And a pounding heart kept rhythm with my head * I’d split the difference easy on your wrongs against my rights * To silence the war of what we said * Chorus * Cause you’re all I ever loved * And it’s taken all my strength to understand * And it’s broken down my will; now I know there is a hell * And I would not be here * No, I would not be here * If I only took your hand * Scratch the surface, what a bloody shame * Tears fall red and reckless down my face * With all my heart I wished you here beside me * When I hit ground running from this place * Chorus * Bridge * It’s bitter cold without you hear inside my head * Courage isn’t what they chalk it up to be * Worse is that I’m lonely for the stupid things you said * But I can’t forgive dishonesty * Chorus * Lyrics and Music: Laura Bradley

Probably

Missing you is not the way I planned this * Out of sight is never out of mind * Loving you long distance barely fills me up * And I can’t get your drift chatting on-line * I wonder where you are and what you’re doing * I wonder if you’re wondering on me * The nights are getting longer and my phone just doesn’t ring * I think that it’s broken, cause I haven’t heard a thing * Chorus * Probably it will be okay * And probably you are fine * You’re probably laughing right now * And probably I’ve stopped crying * Every mile a bitch and back between us * Holding you is just a memory * Your picture’s really crumpled cause I sleep with it in bed * And I’m starting to think this is messing with my head * Chorus * Bridge * Get out of my way * I’m out of my mind * I need to get back now * It’s a matter of time * Chorus * Probably it will be okay * And probably you’re still fine * But probably’s never been good enough * Let it be good enough this time * Lyrics and Music: Laura Bradley

Big Ass Liar

I am a big ass liar * I took you for a ride * I gave you the words you wanted * Now I’m the one who’s trying to hide * I am a big ass liar * I said that I understood * Your reasons for clinging to * Excuses why you never could * Move on * Chorus: * I have never been so ashamed * I told you that it was okay * To live your life this brutal way * Watching you make the same mistakes * Over and over and over again * Over and over again * I am a big ass liar * I watched you place the blame * On everybody left * Responsible for all your pain * Chorus * Bridge: * I’d prefer you’d skip the part * Of how it soothes you craving heart * It cracked your life and stole my voice * The bottle that’s your drug of choice * Empowered by your lesser god * A drunken monster rages in a fog * I am a big ass liar * I took you for a ride * Chorus * Lyrics and Music: Laura Bradley

Storm

You won’t slow a raging river from the middle * You’ve got to seek the end and wait the calm again * And I can’t help you stay afloat * If you won’t reach for me * And I can’t fix this broken hope again * Chorus * And we’ll go down together * Silent in these waves * Choking on a storm * Of words we never said * After all this time * It’s funny I’m * Still wishing * In a thundering silence * A soul cracked in this room * Now it’s standing room only * But they don’t know you like I do * I know I made up all the rules * I still wonder why * No one gets to you the way I try * Chorus * Bridge * Odds are we’ll surface * With little or no faith * The storm will cease * And we’ll wind up somewhere safe * Will it really * Matter at all * Cause in this storm * I can’t hear you call * Chorus Lyrics and Music: Laura Bradley

Don’t Forget to Write

(Lullaby for Grampa) There’s no hurry * You’ve got no place to go * Find the calm, my love * Let it soothe you real slow * You don’t remember * That’s all right because I do * It’s just so strange how * I don’t know what to do * Chorus * But if you falter * I’ll be there by your side * Take care now * Don’t forget to write * I will remember * The blueness of your eyes * Take care now * Don’t forget to write * Now it’s different * You fly away unharmed * Leave behind the armor * Call the fight with open arms * From the distance * You begin to see the shapes * No need to salvage * Cause nothing went to waste * Chorus * Bridge * For a moment * You’ll fight without a sword * On the battlefield you knew * Find the calm * Rest awhile * Let it speak to you * Chorus * Lyrics: Laura Bradley, Music: Laura Bradley & Jim Gasior